Sickkk.

There. My fear has come. I felt weak today, I couldnt work lest concentrate in the office. My eyes are tired and wanted to close. I need a long rest.

This morning I visited the resident doctor of the Department. My stomach ached so bad. Gumuguhit yung sakit sa tyan, i told the doctor. The doctor was nice and accommodating. She gave me hot compress. My head ached, I got chills all over. I looked pale, my officemate who helped me get the medicine told me. i thought may kumukulam sakin. I know I was getting too hysterical na that time.

After 1 hour of lying on the matress, still feeling weak, the doctor told me she couldnt tell right away what caused the pain. She adviced me to have a couple of laboratory tests (CBC and routine urinalysis) from other hospitals because the Department does not offer free tests like them.

SO my officemate and i went outside the bdlg and headed to the nearest hospital. It's a good thing my boss let us borrow the office vehicle and a driver to send us off. We were looking for the "quickmed" however, we found "starmed". It's a relatively cheaper hospital/clinic situated at the back of Phil. Heart Center. The lady receptionist gave me a plastic container for the urine sample. She also pricked my finger with a needle to get a blood sample. These samples needed 1 hour to get examined. My officemate and i ordered pancakes from McDo though i told her wala tlga akong gana. To kill the boredom we talked about a lot of things in the office - I still felt really sick.

The tests told us that my UTI has returned. The normal WBC should be 0-2. I had 4-8hmf. I didnt know what these counts got to do with the UTI, the doctor just told me it's abnormal and i am a candidate for UTI patient. I said, Oh God thanks it wasnt anything serious.
But the doctor told me it could lead to kidney problems, which is not impossible to occur since my father has one. She made some transcriptions and proper diet advices. I have to take the medicine for 10 days and come back to the clinic on the 11th day to have me examined further.

I hate hospitals. But if I hate them i should take real good care of myself.

After that, we went back to the office . Business as usual though i was still not feeling well. I need to sleep. i want to sleep. Hay...

But this is reality, man. we have to work to survive. But we also should remember, in order to be productive we must take care of ourselves.

Im feeling sleepy here in the office right now, that's why i made a blog out of my today's experience. I wish it's 5 so I can go home.

Exhausted me.

I couldnt help myself but wonder what exactly was going on with me. Really. I've been busy the past few days in the office preparing documents, attending meetings, collaborating with different agencies regarding one of my handled projects seeking funding from World Bank, and goodness.. I need to slow down a bit. I already forgot to text "some people" like I usually do for 2 days. Maybe, it's time to mainstream my thoughts and energy and manage them in order. I mean, Im no superwoman. I have problems, too. And I have to allot time for each. And it's not easy. Hay...

I need a break. I wanted to go back when I was in college, when I can be alone whenever and wherever I want, I can go to this and that place without any responsibilities to worry (like what I have in the office right now) and just be carefree.

Hay, Im exhausted lang cguro. I'll leave everything to God. I know He blesses every person in this world.

So, Cheer up! =)

Low. Low. Low.

I was feeling low yesterday. I actually didn’t know what bothered me. Basta something along as I worked in the office made me felt this way. I just didn’t feel appreciated after I did some things people required me to do. This is the worst feeling one can get, really. A day has already passed and it still troubles me. It sucks.

Maybe I need to loosen up a little bit. I know, I’ve kinda tired myself from thinking so much about so many things this week and it’s not healthy. Surely, I have to think of the future, but it didn’t help me feel better. It made me really really unhappy instead. Hehe. Like what? Well, about what I really wanted to do with my life, my career, family problems (every family has one), relationships (with friends, acquaintance, and love ones..hehe)

Hay…
I guess whatever lies in the future will happen no matter how you stop or circumvent the situation. You just have to be steadfast that none of them will bring your spirit down.

I guess, I need a good philosophical book to spice up my office life. The problem is, as much as I want to, I really don’t have the time naman. Of course there would be idle times in a day but I spent them most of the time, thinking. I hope happy thoughts. But problems keep on barging in eh. The once I’ve created and the natural human problems.
Sana matapos na all at once or kahit one at a time lang… Para I can move on with my real happy life naman.. (Parang retirement na yata ang gusto ko, hehe)

There, just to keep my blogger account posted. Hehe.

If you have any suggestions on how to become really, really happy with your life I’m more that happy to read them here. Thanks in advance =)

I Want No Blogger Blabber

"What you see, what you read when you go leave it here. "

This should be a creed for all blogger readers who couldn't get away without managing a conclusion about you after reading what, 2 or 3 of your blogs? Worse is when he/she even has the nerve to play around your gamut of blogs and badmouth them to his/her similarly blogger blabber friends. (im not furious, ok?)

Hey, it's not like you've known the person all your life, right?

Blogging is just one of the means by which you can release whatever feelings and emotions you have "in the now". It's quite healthy actually to give a burst instead of keeping them inside. If these feelings would only hurt you and give you chronic high blood pressures and epileptic ceasures, hey, why dont give blogging a try? What's nice about these electronically-operated blogging engines is that, they do not complain.. hahaha.. Seriously. (Poor thing.) The diary of the modern age, so to speak.

C'mmon, you know better. Get a life. Or follow my advice. Blog.

About Paulo

This is My Life..

And you're a part of it. How on earth? Every thing that leads you to me becomes a part of me, or if you want-- a part of you, too. Your time, effort and the chance [or was it a wave of destiny] that brought you here to me are all mine now.

Was it all confusing? That's how deep I remember words of Paulo Coelho to me at first and until now. He does not believe in coincidences. Every thing has it's purpose for taking place. He makes simple things complex and goes beyond that. Ironically, he makes complicated things easier for whatever your neurons can accommodate.

It's nice to have people like him around. He makes life interestingly goofy.


Read his books "the alchemist", "veronika decides to die", " by the river piedra i sat down and wept" ... and i heard "11 minutes" is a compelling read, too. Try if you like his style of writing and tell me about your findings. =)

First timer

Oh gosh my feelings are way beyond words .. I really got the inspiration from superbianca (bianca gonzales) for having a blog page myself here at blogger. It's cool and really looks secluded from all those blogging webpages you see on the net.. (too early to judge). Hmm.. no special reason, really, but it's a new experience for me once again to try crafting an account after friendster and multiply.

I think I'll put more details on my page when I have time. I'll get back here as soon as I want to post any happenings in my life, not to mention look around for friends/ co-bloggers who happen to be in my circle of life.

Hooray to a new day with blogger! It's weird that Im so excited about it... very unusual of me. hehe